Moving right along

My last post apparently didn't get published so I published it today. Currently I'm on cd4 although in 30 min cd5. Anyway, I had my baseline and all went well with that. I'm on my estrogen patches and waiting for my first lining check on Friday. These estrogen patches are killing me. I'm so sleepy and trying to keep up with my daughter is proving to be incredibly hard. Not sure really how I'm still awke now. On top of me being a zombie my hubby has bronchitis and is super sick so that didn't make things easier. He is gone mon -Friday most weeks so I don't get a break from the munchkin at all. Kinda a single mom. So when he comes back in town I rely on him to give me a little break but this weekend was difficult. He did try and I was able to go get groceries without a screaming toddler so that's a plus. Hopefully all his traveling will slow down soon. 

I'll update on Friday with results. Hoping my lining is thick enough to schedule my transfer!

Here we go!!!!

Today is cd1. We are starting the process of expanding our family by one more! I go tomorrow for my baseline since they aren't there on the weekends. After that I'll go in for my lining check on cd9 and hopefully it's ready. At that point I'll travel to San Diego for my transfer. :) I can't believe it's already time. 

In other news I'm fostering a momma dog and her 3 pups until they are ready for adoption. They are super cute! Here are a few pictures

Progress

My sonohystriogram went well. The dr said we are good to go with my next cycle. Wow, is this really happening??? I feel like it's happening really fast. I'm very anxious to get the ball rolling. Only a few more weeks. Most likely having the transfer at the end of April. Eeeek!

Emma is doing so good with her therapy. She is no longer doing the speech therapy. They seem to think that the occupational therapy will help with the speech. So 3 times a week for ot for now. When we first went she screamed more than half the time back there. Now, only a week later she is having a blast with her therapist. Some of the therapy includes sand box play, swinging, rolling on an excercise ball and other sensory related activities. I'm so relieved that she is doing so good. Also in the past week she has started saying a few words! Mama being the biggest (at least for me) ball, nana for banana, and uh oh. I'm so proud of her. :)

In other news I will be having laser eye surgery done in Friday! I'm so nervous. I have been wanting to do this for years but haven't gotten the nerve to. It creeps me out to think of them cutting my eyes. I just want to sleep through it. But for obvious reasons that's not possible. 

That's all I have for now. 

She wasn't feeling good so I rocked her to sleep! Love her so much. 

Therapy and starting FET

Therapy for Emma is starting this week. She is going twice a week for occupational therapy and twice a week for speech therapy. Hopeing that she just needs a tiny push to get her going in the right direction. Her first session is on Wednesday. 

Only a month to go before we start our frozen embryo transfer. Tomorrow I'm going for my fluid ultrasound to make sure everything is all good under the hood! Lol basically to make sure my uterus is ok and without any growths of any kind. Then with my next cycle (hopefully in 20 days) we will start the FET cycle. I'll start my estrogen patches on cycle day 1 and get my first ultrasound lining check on cd3. Then again on cd10. If my lining is nice and thick we will schedule the transfer. I need to be on the progesterone in oil shots for1 week before transfer. After that week is up I'll fly out to San Diego and get pregnant Haha. Well I hope at least. I'm excited but nervous. I hope I'm ready for this. Here we go!!!!!!!!

Here is my cutie pie!

More on SPD

http://spdfoundation.net/about-sensory-processing-disorder.html

http://spdfoundation.net/redflags.html

http://sensorysmarts.com/signs_of_spd.html

Sensory processing disorder

We went to Emma's evaluation yesterday with the speech therapist. We are going again next week for another evaluation with the occupational therapist. It's my understanding that Emma most likely has sensory processing disorder which in turn is delaying her speech. Here is a link for more information on this disorder http://www.m.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/sensory-processing-disorder. Basically it's a condition where the signals in the brain aren't connecting and in turn are having trouble Recieving and responding to information recieved from the senses. 1 in 20 children are affected by this and it is treatable.  Especially if caught early this will probably not affect her life in a huge way. 

I have to admit that yesterday I didn't take this very well. Of course the first thing that crossed my mind was what did I do or what didn't I do for this to happen. With further research I discovered that this can be hereditary. Both myself and my husband had some learning disabilities growing up and after reading the signs I believe this is what I had. Back then though it was often misdiagnosed. This was a little of a relief knowing that it wasn't anything that I did. It's just something that happens due To family history. 

After getting home I researched and researched and talked with a dear friend who has s daughter going through the same issue. She helped me a lot and made me feel better. There are state programs that help with this and offer it at no cost. I plan on going to this place recommend by my dr and is covered by my insurance. But insurance only covers 60 visits. So I'll also be doing the state program. I have started the process with them already and have our first visit next Thursday. The really nice thing about the state program is that they come to your house for the therapy. This will make it much easier on us since we will be going to therapy twice a week already at the other place. 

All in all yesterday was a little stressful for me as a mom. I'm feeling much better today about it though. I just don't want my daughter to ever have to struggle in her life. I think that's the hardest part because I see her frustration with not being able to communicate with us. I can usually understand what she is trying to tell me by her gestures but other times I have no clue. She gets very upset when she can't do something or can't get something to work. Like trying to get the blocks in the right hole. She gets very discouraged and starts whining. It kills me to see this. I just want her to be a happy kid. 

Hopefully we will start to see some improvements with these therapies. I imagine that because she is only 18 months we will. They are like sponges at this age. She just needs help connecting those wires in her brain. 

Last night I rocked her to sleep and just kept rocking. I just wanted to hold her. She was so cute. 

These are the moments I live for!

18 months and another baby?

No, I'm not pregnant! But we have decided to go ahead and try for number 2. We have 7 frozen embryos in San Diego. I'll be doing my monitoring here in st Louis and then traveling to San Diego to do the transfer. Oh yea I forgot to mention we moved back to St. Louis, our home town, in December. We are thrilled to be back with family and friends. New York was not for us. Anyway, with my next cycle I will be doing another sonohystriogram. Then the cycle after that the transfer. So we are looking at mid to late April and possibly early May for the transfer. I'm very nervous about handling two little ones but I don't want them to be far apart in age. Emma will hopefully be a good big sister this time next year. :) I'll post more when we get started on the transfer cycle. Now back to my little angel. 

Emma is 18 months, a year and a half old! Hard to believe right? We have had a very eventful past few months. Moving was the huge change. Emma loves our new house as do mark and I. She has so much more room to run around and play. 

Here is a quick update. She has 12 teeth and working on one more right now. Loves to color, read books, go down her indoor little slide. She loves baby dolls right now too. At her 18 month appointment she weighed in at 24.6lbs and couldn't determine her length but guessed it was around 33 inch. She was screaming bloody murder for some reason. She is in 24-2t clothing. Size 5 diaper. Size 6 shoe. She is a pretty picky eater these days. Luckily she still likes the pouches and I can get some nutrients in that way. Her favorite thing to eat is bananas, granola bars, grilled cheese, turkey, cereal, peanuts and loves fruit snacks! 

We had a scary week a few weeks ago. Emma had a stomach bug that started off as vomiting and diarrhea along with a fever. As the week went by she had diarrhea multiple times a day.you could tell the kid was pretty miserable. So I took her to the doctor and they wanted me to bring her to the ER to check some blood work and to get a urine sample to make sure she doesn't have a urinary track infection or kidney infection. That was The worst thing I've ever had to experience as a mother. They gave her fluids through an IV and had to use a catheter to get urine. I hope I never have to witness that again. It was terrible to have to see her go through that. Turns out she was extremely dehydrated and that is was just a stomach bug. She just couldn't recover because of the dehydration. After she got the fluids she almost instantly got better. Very scary situation. 

Other than that Emma is a thriving little girl. There is a concern with her not talking still. She really doesn't say many words other than dada and what's that. So the pediatrician is having us see a speech therapist. I'm hoping that with a little help she starts blabbing all types of words. Don't get me wrong this kid talks all day long. She just doesn't say any words. I'll update after our first visit. 

Here are some pictures!!!

Christmas 

Our last nyc outing! The rockefeller Christmas tree. 

15 month update!

Where has the time gone? My last real update on Emma was her 1 year post. Things are so busy around here that I just don't have much time to sit and write a long updated post. 

Let's see, Emma is a thriving toddler that has an endless amount of energy! She wakes up running most days. She takes one afternoon nap that has been lasting close to 2 hours. Nights are touch and go usually. She sleeps through the night sometimes and ofher nights she wakes up once, I change her diaper and put her back down. Then she will sleep until 8am. I have lucked out a few days were she has slept until 9! I think she is making up for all those terrible nights in the beginning and the fact that she didn't start sleeping through the night until 14 months! She is fully weaned as of 2 weeks ago now. Only whole milk now. Her favorite foods are toast, bananas, strawberries, chicken nuggets, parm peas, yogurt, chicken chili and apple sauce. She's eating a lot more these days and is much more willing to try new things. Most of time she is a happy girl. I will say that she has a very strong personality! The girl knows what she wants. Her temper tantrums are quite a scene. All I can do is laugh because it is so loud and annoying. When it gets to bad I get the iPad out and let her watch curious George. It is her favorite show in the world. George is a life saver!!!

We have gone on a few trips since her birthday. Only to at Louis to visit family but it's still fun and I'm so glad she is able to be with family and know that they aren't just people that live in the iPad (FaceTime). We have done lots of zoo trips and went to grants farm and parks. She loves animals, just like her mommy! 

Halloween came and went in a hurry! She wanted nothing to do with pumpkin carving and when it came time to go out trick or treating she was not having it. Until..... She noticed people were giving her candy! Then she was a happy little girl. She loves chocolate and suckers. 

She was tinker bell this year. 

Next up is thanksgiving! Unfortunately we won't be traveling back to stl for this holiday. We will be here in New York. I'm ok with that. A nice quiet evening of turkey stuffing and potatoes topped with pie of course. 

Let's talk molars!!!!! Oh boy do I hate molars. She is getting all four right now the little cusps are popping through right now. But they are taking forever! Her little fingers are constantly hooked in her mouth. Chewing away! A few nights I have had to give her Benadryl to help her sleep. Right now I think they aren't bothering her that much but last month was hard. I just hope they pop through fast. Then I guess we are on to canines! I have heard they are tough too. 

Her 15 month check up is next Monday so I will post her stars then. 

Now here are some pictures!!!!

She found a bag of Doritos and wouldn't let me take them away! 

Chester the giraffe!

I just love this little girl! 

My little tinker bell

I know it's been a bit since I have posted an update so here is a small one. I'll be posting a 15 month update after her dr appointment. 

So for Halloween Emma was Tinker Bell! It was a rough day because she is getting her molars in and has been super cranky. But once she realized people were giving her candy she was having a great time! One lady offered her to pick her candy from the bowl and she was so excited she started shaking her hands out in front of her and said "ahhhhhhhhhhhhh" in a growling voice. Then grabbed two fists full of candy. It was hilarious. We had fun!

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