Las Vegas

Well we made it to Las Vegas! I drove to Kansas City on Wednesday to my sisters. Stayed there over night and flew out the next morning. She is keeping Emma for me while I'm gone. She has twins so Emma can play with them. Very good distraction. This is the first time away from her over night and it's for 4 nights. I talked to her this morning and she said she's having a blast. That makes me so happy. I was worried and anxious all day yesterday. I think now I can relax a little knowing she is fine and happy. 

 Vegas is awesome, beautiful and fun but very hot! We are having lot of fun. Right now we are at the pool and later I think we will see a show and gamble a bit. 

 In other news I got a call from my dr and got the all clear to stop all my meds at 9 weeks! I'm so excited for this. I'm incredibly tired of all these shots pills and patches. So the countdown is on, 6 more shots! My next appointment is at 12 weeks. Then we can announce to the world petries existence. :)

 

8 weeks

Had my 8 week appointment today. Nothing really to report. Did the ultrasound and little Petrie looked great. Heart rate of 166. I had blood work done as well. I won't get that back for a few days though. I'm anxious though because that's when I will know when I can stop my meds. I'm so ready to stop the progesterone shots. 

As far as how I'm feeling, very very tired and cranky. I also have insomnia really bad. Waking up every few hours. And my little toddler doesn't really care that mommy is tired. The world revolves around her. :(   I have been taking naps when she does as long as I don't have to much to do around the house. I am just so exhausted and when I'm exhausted I'm very cranky. I feel horrible because I feel like I'm not being a good enough mom. I just don't have the energy. Luckily she loves to color right now so I can sit down while she's doing that. Nausea is still there but not terrible. I find if I eat small meals often I'm good. When I get hungry is when I get sick. 

I'm going on a little vaca to Vegas with mark this week. My sister was kind enough to offer to watch Emma for me. This will be the first time I ever leave her. I haven't spent one night away from her since she was born. I'm sure she will be fine. In fact I'm almost positive it will be me having the hard time. Not to mention I cry at everything right now. Prayers for me and her please. 

That's all I have for now. Here are the ultrasound pictures from today. Oh I'm predicting a boy based on the Ramzi method. ( method based on were the placenta is located at 6-8 weeks) We won't know for a while though. 

6 week ultrasound

Everything looked good on Fridays appointment with the clinic. Heart rate was 114 and he/she was measuring right on track.  Very thankful after our little scare. :)

Nausea sets in

For a few days now the nausea has really set in. My last pregnancy was awful with nausea and vomiting. I haven't gotten sick yet but I would imagine it's not far off. I just hope it's not as bad as it was with Emma. I lost 10 lbs in my first trimester with her. 

My sense of smell has gotten sting too. I can smell anything and everything now. That doesn't help with the nausea either. If I eat small snacks often it helps but it's hard when nothing seems good and everything has a smell to it. 

Just wanted to document this for the future. I find myself going back to when I was pregnant with Emma a lot now. 

Also wanted to note I haven't had anymore bleeding. 

A little scare

Last night I woke up to go to the bathroom and noticed some bleeding. I immediately went to google with panic in my head with the word miscarriage flashing in my mind. Of course there were tons of reasons for bleeding. Some ending in miscarriage and some ending with a healthy baby. But one thing that stuck out was brown blood was better than red. I had brown. So I went back to bed and decided to call in the morning. I called my dr in the morning and was told to go in for an ultrasound. When I called my monitoring clinic here in St Louis they told me They couldn't get me in! WHAT! I was panicking at that point. I was so mad. Couldn't they see that this was going to kill me if I couldn't get in? Nope! I hung up and decided to call my regular ob and see if they could see me. Yep, my nurse was so nice. She said come in at noon and we will see what's going. What a relief. So I high tailed it over to my moms to drop off Emma and then headed to my Drs. They brought me back for the ultrasound and she turned on the screen and there was our little Petrie 2.0! We even saw a little heartbeat. What a relief. I can't tell you how happy I was to see that itty bitty flicker. After the ultrasound I saw my dr. and she did an exam. She said the bleeding is likely from the rapid growth and stretching of my uterus. But to be on the safe side I should take it easy for a few days. After I left I went and got a pedicure :) then picked up Emma and headed home. My mother in law came over to babysit while I went to a movie with a friend that was already planned. We saw train wreck. It was really funny.  All in all it was a long day but turned out good. Here is a pic of our little one. 

Itty itty bitty but definitely there :)

Emma turns 2

Here are some pictures of Emma's party we had over the weekend. Today was her actual birthday though! 

My sister and I made all of this! Very proud!

We all had a great time! Love my little angel. I know she is going to be a great big sister. Happy birthday sweet girl, mommy loves you. 

My little Emma

With all that's been going on I haven't posted much on our sweet Emma! Trust me she is far from being forgotten. She will be two next week!! I can't believe it really. She has grown up so fast. We are having a Minnie Mouse party for her on Saturday. I'm so excited for it. Lots of friends and family will be coming. 

The terrible twos started a few months ago really. This child has quite the attitude and can throw a mean epic tantrum. Like falls to the floor kicking and screaming kind. These are the moments where I start to question my parenting. But then I have to remind myself she is two and its normal. I get way to stressed about it really. I need to just ignore her but it's hard to do that when in public. I have been "that mom" plenty of times now. I feel guilty for thinking such horrible things about other moms I would encounter before I had Emma. I told myself I will never be her! Well that went down the shitter. I can't count how many times I have had to just up and leave a store due to pure embarrassment. My biggest mistake is suckers. I bribe the kid every time we go somewhere. Now the second I put her in the cart she immediately says "gucker" Emma slang for sucker. I have definatly failed in this department. 

She is a talking machine now. She repeates everything now and has even started saying short sentences. Like "no I no want it". Or "what did you do" when she does something wrong. Always blaming it on someone else lol. She is learning shapes and colors well. Although right now every color is yellow. Haha

Foods, well she is picky. Let's just leave it at that. 

That's all I can think of for the moment. I'm super tired so I'll stop here and leave you with some pictures. :)

Symptoms

My new best friend. Yep the acid reflux has started. In fact it started about 4 days ago. Amazing how fast symptoms set in. The worst is at night time. Or if I eat any chocolate. My sister seems to think it's probably a boy since my symptoms are so different then they were with Emma. We are always away from knowing the sex but a boy would be nice I guess. A girl would be easier though since we have everything already. Either way we will be so happy. 

Progesterone shots are killing me right now. I have all this numbness and tingling that is there all the time and also the injections themselves are bad. I think we are hitting a nerve sometimes because the pain goes down my leg. I just can't wait to be finished with them. I forget how long I have to be on them though. I can only pray it's not much longer. 

I am so anxious to have my ultrasound. I want to see that little nugget so bad. I just want that confirmation ya know? 12 days! That's a long time. Anything can happen in that time. I just hope my little Petrie stays strong and continues to grow and be healthy. :) 

Not a long post today but just wanted to check in. Hope everyone had a great weekend 

Results are in!!!!!

Today was my first blood test. My beta came back at 270!!!! It was only 110 with my little Emma. So I'm hopeful that this is and will continue to be a healthy pregnancy. My first ultrasound is in two weeks August 14th which was coincidentally my due date with Emma. Anyway just wanted to update. We are so excited and I can't wait to see our little Petrie 2.0 on the ultrasound monitor. Technically I am 4 weeks 2 days pregnant 

8dp5dt

Sooooo, of course I've POAS!!!! 

Actually I started at 5 1/2 days after my transfer. BFP! I'm trying not to get to excited because I know anything can happen. But as of right now, I'm PREGNANT! The line is getting darker each day. I didn't get my first positive with Emma until day 6 and you could barely see the line. Here is a picture of her pee sticks. They weren't as dark as these are. 

We only put back one embryo so no twins. Hopefully it means a strong healthy pregnancy. I go in for my beta on Friday. 3 days away. So I'm anxious to find out my numbers. With Emma my first beta was 110. Anything over 50 is considered good. So we shall see. Anyway I just wanted to share. Still keeping it a secret from everyone else though. At least until my mouth explodes from excitement. Lol. 

As far as symptoms, boobs are really sore, very bloated, extremely thirsty and I have the munchies, hot flashes out the wazoo and I'm incredibly tired. Most of which are from the meds in sure but you never know. I just like to document it all. 

Hope everyone is staying cool. I'll post again on Friday when I get my results. 

HOME

There is no place like home! This trip to San Diego was one for the books. We made it home this evening and I am just beat. The flights were long and stressful. I'm so happy to finally be in my own bed. 

After my bed rest ended we tried to enjoy the city a little. We went to la Jolla a few times and ate at a few really awesome places. La Jolla was and still is one of my favorite places of everywhere I have lived and visited. It's so beautiful and fun. Emma loved the sea lions! She wasn't to sure about the ocean at first but after she warmed up to it she didn't want to leave. 

As far as how I'm feeling.... Pretty good. I'm super tired and pretty irritable. Also very hungry. I was looking back on my blog to when I did my first FET. As it turns out I have almost all if not the exact same symptoms. Hopefully that means I have a little Petrie 2.0 inside me. If you don't remember, Emma's nickname before we knew her gender was Petrie (get it? Petrie dish). Anyway so this little embryo that we transferred is Petrie 2.0 lol. My beta is on Friday the 31st. I'll be counting Down the days for sure. I'm sure I'll POAS before then though. I'll keep us updated. Love you all and thanks for reading my blog!

1dp5dt

Well yesterday was my transfer. I cannot begin to tell you how stressful it was. Everything was going wrong yesterday and the day before. First let me step back and tell you what happened in the beginning.

 My original transfer date was supposed to be on Tuesday today. But on Saturday I looked at all my paperwork and realize that I had started all my medicines a day early. So of course I freaked out and called the exchange number. I talked with the doctor on call and she said that we will have to do the transfer a day early on Monday. So when I got off the phone I switched my flight and the next morning we were off to San Diego. The flight was horrible it was just me and Emma. My mom had to come the next day which was the original day we had planned to come. Emma screamed the entire four hours. I was not very popular on the plane. I ended up staying with a friend of mine about 40 minutes away from the clinic. I had to get up extremely early to go in for 715 ultrasound. Then my transfer was at noon. The day started off great everything was going as planned and went in for my ultrasound and everything looked good they said see you at noon. The hotel let me check in early and I went and got some groceries. As I was leaving the grocery store though my mom called me and said that her flight was delayed and they had no idea when it was going to be in. Something was wrong with the plane. So I called my friend really fast and she raced out here to watch Emma while I went and had the transfer done. I called and uber cab when I was ready to go. The stupid over driver got lost and then I ended up having to drive myself and was 20 minutes late. Embryologist told me that they couldn't saw the good embryo because it had already asked and was a day six embryo. Therefore it was too fragile to transfer his preferred to be a last resort. So the embryo I had transferred was a fair quality embryo. When they brought me back to the room they looked at my bladder and said it was not full enough so my legs were in the air and I had to drink four glasses of water and wait. I felt like my bladder was going to explod.  Finally though the embryos transferred and hopefully it's all snuggled in and ready for a nine month journey. My mom met me at the hospital she took a cab from the airport. So she was able to drive my car back to the hotel. 

 So that was all the craziness that happened before the transfer. Now on to my bed rest. I got back to the hotel and latex on the couch. Emma is not to thrilled about this whole thing. She want me to put her to sleep and wants me to hold her. Last night was the first night she ever slept with me. She would not sleep in the pack n play. So my mom brought her in bed with us. Worst idea ever! She kicked us all night, kept waking up crying, stole my pillow and blankets, started picking my nose, naming every facial feature by poking me and got face to face and breathed on me with her horrible toddler breath. Let me tell you it was so much fun!! 

 I have had to pick her up a few times. This worries me a little. I'm only supposed to get up to pee. I really hope that this doesn't hurt anything. I'm sure plenty of other people have gone through the same issues having a toddler while on bed rest. Anyway, that's what's been going on.  Im resting in my room now and my mom is taking Emma to the pool. 

Before transfer

There he or she is! Praying that he/she decides to stick around. 

Getting anxious

The days are passing by quickly and in just two days I'll be in San Diego! We are having a small problem that will hopefully be gone by Monday.  My mom will be coming with Emma and I so she can take care of Emma while I'm on bed rest. Unfortunately she is sick right now. Has a bad cough and feels awful. She has taken different medications including steroids antibiotics and cold medicines but nothing seems to be working. I don't know what I will do if she decides she can't go. I think I would have to cancel everything because no one else can go. That would be a huge blow. Not only will we lose more money but I just can't do this process for a fourth time. We can't afford it for one and two my body just can't handle another round of hormones and injections. So please if you read this please say a prayer for us! Pray for my mom to get better and pray that this FET works. We just can't bare another cancelled cycle. If everything goes as planned, only 3 more days until I'm hopefully knocked up! Lol fingers crossed!! 

Sleepy

I forgot how tired progesterone makes you. Last night was my first injection. Not fun by the way. I have a huge bruise. Today I'm struggling big time to keep my eyes open. Let me tell you, having a toddler and almost falling asleep.... Not a good combination! T-5 days till transfer! Hope I start getting some more energy. 

Soooo tired!

Finally!

I feel like I'm dreaming a little. This has been such a long 5 months of hormones surgeries, pneumonia and unwanted ovulating. After all that I have finally gotten the green light for a transfer. We scheduled it for next Tuesday the 21st. My lining check was Monday. It was think and ready at 12.24. My ovaries were suppressed and I had not ovulated according to my blood work. Sooooo I start my progesterone shots prednisone and one other medicine tomorrow. Not looking forward to my progesterone shots. Those needles are huge! Anyway, off to San Diego we go! We fly out on Monday. Praying for a easy transfer with a positive pregnancy result!