Maybe June???

I have scheduled my surgery for my gallbladder next Friday. I'll be happy to get that in my past. The pain I get from it is awful! Doubled over pain that feels like a labor contraction. Luckily the recovery time is short for this surgery. It will be less than a week before I'm back to normal. So that's a plus. 

I talked with my nurse about when we could get back on the horse with our FET. She said with my next cycle as long as I'm cleared from my surgeon. That should be mid May. So if I start mid May we are looking at a June transfer. Seems like forever away. But I can't think that way. I need to enjoy my time before I'm prego again. Well hopefully prego again. 

We are having a big bbq at our house in 2 weeks so I'll be able to have fun now. If I would have done the transfer already I wouldn't be able to drink. :) 

That's all I have for now. Just wanted to do a tiny update with what's going on. 

A little down

Today I should be in San Diego. But instead I'm sitting in my living room alone. The baby is sleeping and my husband is gone for 5 more days. I should be about to transfer our little embryo on Tuesday but now I'm shedding that lining I worked so hard to plump up. Today I'm a little depressed. While no one else sees my sadness through my smiles I am crying on the inside. I feel like my body failed me before I could even start. 

My pneumonia is pretty much gone now. My gallstones are still very much there. I have an appointment on Tuesday to see my surgeon. I hope to have my surgery to get my gallbladder out Friday. I don't want to risk not having the surgery and then it flare up during pregnancy. I am also hoping that with the start of my next period in late May we will start the FET cycle again. If that happens I should have my transfer in June. 

Anyway I just thought I would give a little update on what was going on. In other news my little Emma just turned 20 months old!!!!! Here is a picture of my little cutie. 

It's over!

On Thursday I stated feeling sick with a fever chills and a bad cough. I though to myself please God let this be something small and it passes in a day or two. Friday comes and I'm worse. Saturday I can't function. I was in bed shaking uncontrollably when I called for mark to bring the thermometer up. I had taken Tylenol almost 2 hours earlier for my fever and it wasn't breaking! Took my temp and it was 105.3!!!!!!!!! I though for sure it was wrong. Again again and again I took my temp with the same results each time. So off to the er I went. After sticking me not once not twice but five times to get an iv they were able to start getting tests done to see what was going on. Those needles for ivs are horrible! Anyway they did blood tests urine tests and a X-ray. My X-ray came back as pneumonia. 😞 I knew at that moment it was over. He said I'm going to call your fertility dr and see what he wants to do. My RE wanted a CT scan just to make sure that it wasn't a blood clot that looks like pneumonia. But he also said that regardless of the outcome I need to stop the estrogen. My heart kinda sunk a little. That was it, the end. So we did the ct scan and it came back fine. No blood clot but pneumonia was confirmed again. I took off my estrogen patches with a few tears coming out. I was so angry that I had done all the prepping and went through all the hot flashes for nothing. I was released after a iv round of antibiotics and fluids. 

As I was waiting for my mom I told her to bring me food because I felt like I was starving. She did and I ate. But for some reason I felt like I was still hungry. I mean horribly hungry. Bad stomach rumbling hunger pains. So when I got home I ate a little more. But I felt kinda nauseous this time but also had those pains in my stomach still. I went to bed and tried to go to bed. I was up all night with this awful pain in my stomach not to mention I was coughing up a lung as well. By 6 am I thought for sure I was dying. I called the er and they said it could be from coughing but I could come back up if I needed to. I took some Tylenol and tried to get up with my husband and Emma for the day. I laid on the couch and did a few dishes but was still in lots of pain with my stomach. By the afternoon I was in tears and went to the er again. 

They did more tests and gave me pain medication. They wanted to do another ct scan but thought that it was to much radiation. So they suggested an ultrasound. But guess what, they don't have a ultrasound tech in the hospital on Sunday's! WHAT??? You're a hospital right? I was so mad. They said they could page someone if there was an emergency though. But I'm not an emergency. So they sent me home again and told me to get an ultrasound done tomorrow and that my dr has been informed already and she will send me out to have one done once I call in the morning. 

Fast forward through another night of horrible coughing and pain in my stomach. I had my ultrasound and was told I have gallstones! Omg! Only I would get gallstones and pneumonia right before my FET. Now I have to have surgery. I don't believe all this is happening. Is it a sign? Is God telling me not to have a baby again or saying now isn't the time? I'm not sure. I do know that once I'm fully better I will start thinking about it again. I just wonder if I should wait a while now.......

Well I'm still in pain currently but I'm on pain medication so that helps. I'll update more after my surgery and I'm feeling better. 

Easter pics!

We had Easter at my house this year! Everyone came and it was a great time. But I'm pooped from the whole thing. I don't think the estrogen helps with that either. Here are some pics....

It's go time!

I had my lining check this morning and it was 11.85!!!!! They want it to be at least an 8 to do transfer. So it's go time!!!!

We have chosen the 21st as our transfer date. I'll start my progesterone shots and other meds on the 16th. It's hard to believe we are doing this again. This time I'm much more relaxed I think because Emma keeps me busy. There is so much going on I don't have time to sit and obsess and dwell on everything. Once I get to San Diego though for the actual transfer I'm sure that will change. I will once again be a Googling addict on everything. I pray that we get a beautiful healthy take home baby. I sometimes feel that I'm to confident about it working because it worked the first time with Emma. Fingers crossed!!!!