A little down

Today I should be in San Diego. But instead I'm sitting in my living room alone. The baby is sleeping and my husband is gone for 5 more days. I should be about to transfer our little embryo on Tuesday but now I'm shedding that lining I worked so hard to plump up. Today I'm a little depressed. While no one else sees my sadness through my smiles I am crying on the inside. I feel like my body failed me before I could even start. 

My pneumonia is pretty much gone now. My gallstones are still very much there. I have an appointment on Tuesday to see my surgeon. I hope to have my surgery to get my gallbladder out Friday. I don't want to risk not having the surgery and then it flare up during pregnancy. I am also hoping that with the start of my next period in late May we will start the FET cycle again. If that happens I should have my transfer in June. 

Anyway I just thought I would give a little update on what was going on. In other news my little Emma just turned 20 months old!!!!! Here is a picture of my little cutie.